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i always hate talking about myself, so i won't.

writing is something that's always meant a lot to me, probably because i'd go insane if i didn't feverishly scribble out my thoughts on a regular basis. i was a pretty avid reader from a young age, and while that's died down quite a bit since then, i've been trying to recapture my love for both reading and writing.

i definitely don't know enough about genres for an aspiring author, but i tend to lump most of my (fiction) writing under the vague umbrella of horror. in any case, i have a tendency to fixate on "darker" topics. ... which is probably very obvious.

on the topic of writing,

bro it is NOT going well atm. you might've noticed i've only added 1 piece of writing to the index since feb 2024. that is because my brain is scrampled and i'm tired all the time. nowadays it's hard to work up any sort of feeling about writing in general, but not too long ago there was a point where i was utterly convinced i was a horrible, awful person for what i write, that the best option for me was to give up entirely or, better yet, delete everything. neither of which i actually did, but it certainly dampened my enthusiasm.

like i said. my feelings these days have listed more into a dull apathy, towards life in general but most importantly towards my writing, maybe in part because i've based so much of my self-worth in the concept of "being an author" that no longer caring for it means i no longer care for myself. ?

and even besides all that i can't look too long at any of my old work, especially the ones on this site, because i know if i do i'll end up deleting everything and then i'd just have a page titled "writing" with nothing under it and that'd be fucking stupid!!

anyway.


not that writing is my only interest... but that's what this site's for, mostly. the computer stuff is just for fun. i'm just being silly and goofy that's all